Time flies when you're having a shit time

Well holy hell, it really has been a long time, and didn't I get the surprise of my life revisiting my blog and re-reading all my posts... These are the main points that have occurred to me.

• my father took us all by total surprise and died. That wasn't supposed to happen.
• partner person is STILL around, and I can't believe I have been so miserable about it for so long
• i love how i wrote about my kids, because for a long time I was feeling like a really crappy mother
• i'm surprised by how positive i was, some of the time. That is such an unfamiliar feeling. The surprise part is that my attitude has deteriorated so quickly. I feel like it was a long time ago that I used to look forward to mondays, but it was just over a year ago.
• also suprised by how i was able to give myself pep-talks... also very unfamiliar now. 
• ..... and this all cements how important is for me to actually track events, emotions, conversations..

More later... kids watching ratatouillle, so the noise is distracting, plus it's naptime for them, so need to go do that