Partner person has left the building!
Early October was the departure date. I took the kiddies away so that they wouldn't be around for the actual move, which wasn't that dramatic actually, since we agreed that Partner-person (hah! need a new name) should move to a furnished place to avoid the trauma of packing boxes, buying stuff etc. Who cares, he's gone.
And I have No. Regrets.
It's as if I was always meant to be living this way. I don't even care about the all the years I've wasted. That wise nation called 'They', say that I will one day see the reason for all this. I can't even imagine what it may be. Yes, yes, I have beautiful amazing, one-of-a-kind children. But who are we kidding. I could have had equally amazing kids with a kind-hearted gentle soul who once in a while rocked my world.
Long story short: I started off being very concerned and considerate about his feelings. He really took it hard, almost as if I had only told him the week before to eff-off. It was very hard to see, and I felt a huge burden from his emotions. I always knew that would be the hardest part for me.
A small part was scared that I would suddenly realise that all these years I had been fooling myself; that I really did want to be with him. But no, not the case at all.
I'm really quite bored writing about all this. I'm so over it. It consumed me for so long, that I can't be bothered to evaluate the meaning of it all.
It's done, I'm glad, now time to get on with the next phase of my life. (cue list)
Next phase includes the following:
- Health
- Wealth
- Happiness
- Now that I don't have partner-person to blame anymore about making me comfort eat, it's time to slim down, and firm up... Excuse me for a minute while I out away this bag of nik-naks
- Flip! I need to freaking make some more money! Business has been bad. I have focused all my attentions onto another venture, which has caused my business to wither away.. Time to refocus, work smart, and pay the damn bills on time.
- Hmmm... will think about this one.
