Stop wasting time you whiny cow

So, once again I say I'm back. Not sure for how long.

Just spent an immense amount of time browsing Pinterest which is my new online indulgence. It makes me feel so inspired and creative, even though I've just been sitting behind my laptop for 2 hours. This is otherwise known as wasting time.

Life is a big shit-fest, but by now you must think I'm a totally negative, lazy person. I'm not. I'm just not where I need to be, and certainly not behaving how I want to behave.

I'm bored by all my complaining. Immensely bored. I'm bored planning the same old things, trying to make the same old changes. I'm bored having the same problems. I'm utterly comatose by having the same arguments and trying the same diets.

This could be what they call a Rut.

Yes, that's me... in Rutsville, Boredtown, Yawn City.

So what do I love at the moment? Obvs my squirrel and angel face. Believe me when I tell you there are no two cuter mini-people on the planet. I love my family (boring), I love my house (boring), I love chocolate (boring), I love my work (boring). Not to say these things and people are boring - it's just a cliché.

I just feel if I write this list in 5 years it will be the same. I would love to love running (exhilarating), love my new jewellery range (stunning), love my new energy (reviving), love my clean car (enlightening).

But now i've gone full circle... back to just sounding that I am so dissatisfied with my life, which is in fact, let's face it, pretty damn awesome!

Fresh Start, Old Heart

Crappy New Year!

Let's just say life never turns out the way you expect. Here I am sitting in my brand new mini-mansion, with probably zero items having being achieved from last years to-do list. In fact, I feel in some ways I'm worse off.

My dad is very ill... after having beaten cancer (Yes.. Cancer can be Beaten!), he deteriorated due to a post-op infection and had a stroke, and is now unable to really communicate with us. 

I want him back.

Due to spending the hols doing 2-3 hospital visits a day, I didn't get anything done that I wanted, so I feel like I'm starting the work year exactly where I left off... chaotic, disorganised & unproductive.

Moved house,and partner-person moved with, and I'm so resentful! More about that later

And then I sit here feeling like a spoilt ungrateful brat, who is just whining and complaining.

Enough said for now.