Rabbi Carlos

I have really been enjoying the chats I have with my nice Jewish friend after our meditation class, but I'm starting to smell a crush in the air and it may be time to start feeling a little uncomfortable. Last week I rushed off after class for various reasons, but didn't get to say goodbye to him, even though we had agreed he would show me a book in the bookstore later on. So I felt bad, and texted him when I got home that I was sorry I rushed off without saying goodbye - he replied "missed you".

I decided to put it all behind me, and we went after today's class to have a look at the book he told me about and for a coffee afterwards. We had a really great chat and good cappucinos, but after we left he started walking me towards the entrance my car was parked at, and I said "OK bye, see you next week", but he replied, "I just want to see where you park because I park on the other side etc etc." I mean, WTF.

I just pointed to the entrance I was parked at said, "I'm over there somewhere... OK, till next week", or something similarly evasive. I mean, the whole incident just reeked of Father Carlos, circa 2001*. Oh, and he also offered me a room in Australia if I ever need to leave SA. Smell fishy? Of the herring kind?

Anyway, back to the real meaty issue of the evening: what I learnt at meditation. After least weeks lesson, I was determined to come back and blog about it so I could remind myself of all the great things I had been told. But I didn't. It was something about Patient Acceptance.. need to refresh my thoughts on that.

Today we went further into Patience, which is the direct opponent to Anger.. some great things she said, but I just couldn't concentrate much. Had thoughts of cancer the entire time I was supposed to be focusing on the sensation of air leaving my ostrils** . The lady behind me had been telling me about her breast cancer, and that the chemo wasn't so bad for her - that the anti-nausea tablets really helped. She also said that when she was having the chemo, the few hours that you are sitting there, you get to talk to all the other people that are sitting having chemo as well, so it can be very social, and almost like a support group. I really think he would benefit from speaking to people who are in the same situation as him. Anyway, just holding thumbs that he really gets his mind positive.

Supposed to be working now. Have made a decision to really focus on work, do quotes quickly, reply to emails quickly, and not spend money at all unnecessarily, and especially not to waste time. It's hard, because I do like the odd cappucino every few hours, but oh well, the sacrifices I have to make.

I WILL get my business back up and profitable again.
I WILL get new stunning clients.
I WILL juice again.
I WILL NOT buy tumbles again this week.
I WILL finish my VAT this week (can you actually believe it!!)
I WILL NOT waste time on FB and MM forum
I WILL practice Patient Acceptance.
I WILL go to sleep now.

Goodnight.


* A funny story about how my Catholic priest made very bold moves me... expensive lunches, perfume, kisses when no-one was around. Gross.

**Squirrels version of Nostrils