Little Miss Angry

So I want to recap what I heard tonight at my meditation group. Once again, it was like the whole lesson / talk was made just for me. I can't believe that what she says can be so relevant, and it's a little comforting knowing that others might be feeling the same way and be experiencing the same issues with anger.

Let me try and remember:
(and always, her examples make it so easy to understand)
If you are annoyed with your partner for not taking the garbage out, you look at that fault, and you exaggerate that fault (you say "You never do what I ask, you never take out the garbage!), and then you make that person feel like an the enemy (you look at them like you don;t even like them, and you don't at all see the person that you were attracted to in the first place), and then you want to do harm to them (because you see them as the enemy, but in reality, they are the same person as ever)...hmm, that doesn't sound right, nor does it make any sense. I think I need to sleep on it.

So tonight's beverage of choice was a Seattle Freeze. Another rendezvous with my elderly Jewish friend, but this time I actually enjoyed it. Seems like he sees it as a regular thing, because after the class he said, let's go get our coffee. Anyway, we had a nice conversation and I got to know a little more about him. I love hearing people's life stories, and about their families and ancestry. He's into horticulture and has a nursery, 3 kids and an ex-wife in Australia, and a wifey over here who might not go with him when he emigrates next year. A little distracting though, are the spiky white hairs growing out from the tip and ridge of his nose, but I try not to judge.

Got nowhere today with Vat and nowhere with tutorials, but its ok. Because I'm not angry and apparently if I practice what I am learning, I can get to a point where I never have to be angry again. And I believe I can do it. Out teacher is such a serene calm person. She just looks Happy. What's nice is that she's honest about herself, and tells us stories of her experiences with rage and jealousy etc etc. Anyway, I'm really going to try and notice the steps that lead to my anger getting out of control... because it's all about me, not him.

..and got a new book.. Here's anonymous me ready for a read. Another corny title, but there is such wisdom in those pages.

Now over to the real world and to do some late night work.. some admin methinks... Wish me luck!